Merry Christmas...and hopefully a happier new year

so, we went to the dr and had an ultrasound and estradiol test on day 15 bc I hadn't gotten a positive OPK yet (started them day 12). well the ultrasound showed, what we thought, was a follicle about 19cm and a nice thick lining...but estradiol was only 125 (last month is was over 600 when we did IUI!) I had a feeling we had missed ov so we did a progesterone test to see...sure enough it showed that I had already ovulated which meant that the "follicle" was actually a cyst. There was some fluid leaking from the cyst and that is most likely what had caused the pain early on. I think, even though we missed it, that the mature follicles were on the left anyway-that will keep me sane if I think that lol.

We are trying clomid, again. it feels like it isn't working but in reality we have only done one IUI using clomid. the first month we didn't use it, the last three we have but had two left-sided ov. We are really hoping that the new year brings new hope and new life. Somewhere around Jan 4th we will, hopefully, try again. *sigh*

wow...its been awhile

I had no idea that we haven't written in our blog since Halloween! Ok, so we did get to inseminate in November but it was unsuccessful again. It was a rough month for us-on the morning of insemination, we had to make the decision to put our oldest dog down. He was 16 and had lived a good life, but it is never easy to make that decision. He has been with my partner for his entire 16 years except for the year she spent serving in Afghanistan. We made a trip to the vet in the morning and then, through tears and sobbing most of the way, drove the 70 miles to the Dr to try to get some good news. The Dr's were all so amazing to us. We told our nurse and every person we saw after that was so sweet and told us how sorry they were for our loss. It was such a roller coaster feeling because we were sad but wanted to feel excited and hopeful at the same time. The let down of a negative test was exacerbated by the loss of our family member.
We are feeling so very frustrated...and we've only been trying for 4 months, I can't imagine doing this for years without success.

This month we are trying clomid again. I have been feeling like I am going to ovulate on the left side again but the dr says that our bodies don't always alternate L, R, L etc. so we are believing her since she is the MD lol.

on Thursday I was having crazy pains in my right side (so bad that i thought it was an appendicitis!) So I am really just keeping my hopes up that it is my right ovary maturing follicles like it is supposed to!

We find out tomorrow because we are going for a blood estradiol test and an ultrasound...fingers crossed!