not this month

well the blood test today was negative.  they asked when we did the IUI, I said Saturday, and they want me to retest on Monday if AF hasn't come (which if my body does what it always does it will have come by then.) I cried, a lot, and cried some more. I realize this is only our first IUI but it is my 6th time trying to get pregnant. I can't help but feel defeated and that my body is just not suited or can't get pregnant. That is me being dramatic, I know, but it is how I feel-I can't help it. Will post an update either monday or before.