Monkey movement

Tonight our amazing surrogate texted me to say that her suspicions were confirmed today...she can feel our monkey squirming!! I cried, I think Shorty cried. What an amazing feeling to know that our little Bennett is moving around in there :-) I just have no words to explain how I feel right now. :-)

Beats and baby

Omg..it's been so crazy around here that I have been a terrible blogger! We heard Baby Bennett's heart beat loud and clear! It was an awesome moment. Solid and strong at 142 BPM. (all the old wives tales say that means it's a boy but I'm sticking with girl lol) This week we are the size of an avocado. Muscles are developing and his/her face can display some expressions. Our little monkey weighs almost 3 ounces! :-) Next step...we get to see Baby Bennett on ultrasound in just a few weeks!! Though we will NOT be finding out the sex we are so very excited to get to see him or her. It really is going quickly we are almost to the halfway point!! On a separate note...we are fighting our way to buy a house. we were supposed to close tomorrow and then a week ago something showed on a credit report that shouldn't have and now....well we may or may not be homeowners before the baby arrives. It is probably a good thing that I am not the pregnant one because this is a ton of stress right now and that would really take it's toll.

Moving fast!

We are almost out of the first trimester! Woohoo! We will get to hear our monkeys heartbeat for the first time I'm less than 3 weeks. I can't wait! !

On another note...this will we went from only 3 fur kids to having 3 fur kids and two boys lol we have the nephews for 10 days so we went from nothing to a 9 and a 5 year old boy running around! Oy vay!

10 weeks...woohoo!

We are now 10 weeks pregnant :-) Our baby is the size of a kumquat but it's internal organs are starting to form, fingers and toes can move, and the brain is forming very quickly. The next OB appt is next week but it will be all about the TS so we aren't attending. We will, however go to the 15 week appointment because we are pretty sure we will get to hear the heartbeat on doppler! then 5 short weeks later we will have a 20 week u/s where we will NOT be finding out the sex of the baby! The bigger thing going on for us right now is this whole house buying debacle. It has been an absolute nightmare! We are in contract on our third house. Waiting for the appraisal...we thought. Then we got a call today from the mortgage broker. Rates have gone up an entire percentage point! And that is very bad news for us. What that meant was that now, with Shorty's current debt, we couldn't qualify for the house we are in contract on bc it would raise our mortgage and therefore her debt-to-income ratio. Are you kidding me??? We were qualified just fine for this when we started this process back in March. So, my quick thinking meant that this crisis only lasted about an hour. Since the VA still uses the "place of residence" rule we can't use my income on our home loan. This is only good for us in that it doesn't matter how much debt is in my name, only what's in Shorty's. So one quick trip to the bank and one loan out of Shorty's name and into mine...means we are still qualified for the home...whew! But it also means our mortgage payment is $150 more than what we had originally planned. ugh. It was either that or start looking for a house that is 20k less than what we were looking at. 20k less on a house and only $150 less a month=a house that needs a lot more work/updating/changing=more money spent in the long run. So, I am playing with the budget and we will work it out! Here's to hoping we get a quick and high appraisal and can move forward!! fingers and toes crossed!

The tides they are a' changin'

Yesterday was a historic day! Shorty and I have been hoping and wishing that by the time our baby arrives in January we could be a legally married couple and be a "legitimate" family in the eyes of the federal government. We have a domestic partnership in Oregon (that, for now, has a constitutional ban on gay marriage). There are still so many things to work out but I believe this will bring our family protections and benefits we weren't afforded before. On a baby note....we are up to the size of a cherry!! Almost to a kumquat :-) Toes are growing, fingers and joints are starting to move...and next week we will be at 10 weeks....almost out of the first trimester already! Our amazing surro has had very little morning sickness, it comes and goes at least. She bought one of those sea bands early on...I hope that is helping when it does hit. We are slowly but surely buying a ton of baby clothes!! lol We are not-so-patiently awaiting closing on a house before buying any big items...and we need to be a bit reserved because I have a feeling that with 2 baby showers we will get a load of things! :-) I'm not sure if I have said this yet but we are NOT finding out the sex of the baby. This is a sore spot for many of our friends and family and I say....tough. We don't get to feel the first kick, movement, etc so this our thing we can control. It's very exciting to be waiting!!!

The greatest gift

So I am watching "I'm Having Their Baby" and it is making me cry. I know the circumstances are different for the girls on here. They are putting their babies up for adoption, they didn't get pregnant for the specific couple. It just makes me think how amazing it is to have someone willing to do this for us. These moms are all having such a hard time making the decision to give their baby to a family that can give them a better life and I can't imagine how that feels. One of the moms decided after the baby was born to keep him and I think about how that would feel and I just can't. I also know that there are emotions that will surface from both our TS and from Shorty and me as we get further into this. We don't know what those will be. I don't think I can describe the feelings right now and how much joy and happiness and amazement and love (ok maybe I can describe it!) that I am feeling. I just want to tell everyone that will listen that we have an amazing TS that is giving us a gift that can never be matched. Our little Audrey or Bennett will forever be the greatest gift that has ever been given to us.

In love!

Our first u/s pics and we are already head over heels! We saw a nice strong heartbeat, 140 beats/min. Our little blueberry is doubling in size every week! This made it very real that we are having a baby. I honestly don't know if I will have a complete grasp of the reality until we have a baby in our arms though. Having a surrogate is a blessing let me tell you...and its a little weird too because we don't feel anything, or see our own baby bump growing. But seeing that little tiny heart fluttering away...Oh that was mind blowing :-)

Cute Baby Stuff!

So I decided that I wanted to go through our baby boxes. We own a ton of stuff already! two crib sets including bumper and skirt and many many crib sheets, mattress pad, receiving blankets...though it's only 3 bins so I am sure we will need a lot more! When I was going through the clothes and showing them all to Shorty I suddenly realized...WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!! In 34ish weeks those tiny little clothes will be filled with a tiny little being that is ours. Our baby that we wanted, worked so hard for, and have finally "made". Our baby that is going to grow up in a family with two moms that already love it more than anything, our baby that has a loving extended family including god parents and chosen family. Our baby. It is unbelievable that in one week we will see our little blueberry and see its heart beating like crazy :-) I will probably cry...and I will post a picture next week :-)

Great Beta numbers!!!

So, our TS Beta numbers were 68.8 14 dpo (days past ovulation) and today 16 dpo her beta was 158.8. More than double is good!!! That means it is a for sure pregnancy and doubling like it should be! OMG....we're going to be mommies! this is amazing. Shorty and I can't even believe it's for real :-) Scheduling the first ultrasound for 7 weeks, which is amazingly 2 1/2 weeks away!!!!!!!! omg we are going to see the very first picture of our baby in 2 1/2 weeks :-)

Looks positive to me...

Well, that many tests can't be wrong! 1st Beta today, then again Wednesday. I'm sure I will be a better blogger now that I will have so much more to share! :-)

BFP! ! !

Omg! This is what our surrogate surprised us with yesterday! She sent a box with my mother for us to open. Inside was a baby blanket, an adorable outfit and these! ! !

Third time's a charm!

Ok...Guido it's time to do your thing! Dr said our TS Follicles and lining looked great! He was happy with Guido and said count appeared to be "as advertised" lol TS also said the Dr mentioned the possibility of twins :-) if only we could be so lucky! ! Shorty and I weren't able to be there today for the IUI but sending baby dust for sure! Also the last two  times the catheter was not so easy to get into her cervix but this time it went in nice and easy! ! 

I am remaining hopeful! It's all I can do so that I don't make myself crazy. The two weeks between a negative pg test and the next IUI are very difficult emotionally but then we do another IUI and I'm suddenly renewed with hope. That's the roller coaster off TTC up and down emotions. It's what we signed on for I guess.

Fingers and toes crossed, baby dust baby dust baby dust! !

2nd Big Fat Negative...

It was negative...again. This is very disappointing, disheartening, discouraging...you get the idea. We said we will try up to 5 times, and I think we didn't think it would take that long. Two weeks will be try #3 (officially for me for all the times I have tried plus the times we have tried with surro-try #11). I have had 10 negatives over the course of several years...I don't know how many more I can take. Each time we have a negative we discuss what our other options are, this time we feel like we have crossed one more option off the list. We aren't giving up-I don't think. Correction, we aren't going to stop trying but I'm not sure that we haven't given up. Shorty said she hates the feeling of spending money and not getting anything in return. I can't help but think with each negative about how much money we have put into trying to have a baby with nothing to show. We both want a newborn and don't want to miss out on those amazing years, I think that's why we keep trying. Adopting a newborn is crazy expensive, like 20k-30k! ugh...ok enough whining for now. I will keep the posts coming if anything changes or when the next attempt happens

waiting but....

well, we are waiting until "the bitch" actually arrives, but not looking good. We had a "faint positive" 7.5 dpo, but apparently got more faint then basically nothing. I am holding out hope but feeling devastated at the same time. I think the hardest part for me is when everything is "perfect" and we still aren't pregnant, I can't imagine what could be going wrong. Maybe we aren't meant to have a newborn? We aren't giving up, we still have 3 tries left before the contract runs out and we move on. I wouldn't mind trying IVF it it wasn't so damned expensive! We can even get donor embryos...but we can also look into adoption. Again, that would mean no newborn probably because that is crazy expensive too! ok...I might be done venting....maybe...

I usually hate Monday's

I am not a fan of Monday usually. It means I have to wait an entire week to get a day that I don't have to be at work/school. But this week is different. Monday is a ginormous day for us! IUI #2 is Monday morning! This time we had 2 follicles, count them 2, that were both 21mm!!! Amazing! Now Guido...I am sure his swimmers can find their way to one or both of those eggs and do their thing :-) I will miss the IUI again but Shorty will be there and I will be there in spirit, thoughts, hopes etc. Also on Monday-we will find out if our offer was accepted on a house! I know we said we weren't going to try to get pregnant and buy a house at the same time but since it isn't me trying to get knocked up it seems like it's ok to put that stress on us. The house we found is great! Move in ready, which I love. We don't even have to paint because we love the colors :-) The few things that we will do are want to do rather than need to do, and they aren't expensive projects but will greatly improve the resale value of the house. Let's hope this TWW goes by quickly because we are worrying about house stuff and not even thinking about how long it has been since IUI!

Happy Easter! This could be the week of try #2. Joy has an US on Thursday to determine where she is and when to give the trigger shot. Again, we have to choose another donor. This will be donor #4 for us...2 different ones when I was TTC and now 2 with the surro. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or bad? Maybe we haven't made it to the right donor yet and that is why we have to keep trying? Shorty has been searching through donors and has found one that was described as having "a strong chin". I'm pretty sure we have mentioned before that one of the biggest things we want our donor/baby to have...is a chin! lol So the donor with the strong chin is a strong candidate. I also like what he has to say, he is tenacious, daring, and adventurous, all the things we hope our child(ren) will possess. I couldn't help myself giving him a nickname-Guido. He's irish and italian....it was either Guido or O'shanahan...so i went with Guido! lol More to come this week once we know how the follicles look and when the trigger shot will be. It is possible that this month both Shorty and I will get to be there for the IUI! Fertility gods do your thing! Baby dust, thoughts, prayers, whatever works for you and will work for us!! :-)

The bitch arrived

Ok so the bitch arrived today which means joy is officially not pregnant this cycle. Honestly...I kind of don't feel anything. I am used to the negative test so it just feels like just another day...school, work, not pregnant. So two weeks, again. We will try try again until we decide it just isn't meant to happen and we adopt. I have faith that we will get pregnant, hopefully sooner than later, but I think it will happen.

not today...

Maybe we were early, maybe it really didn't take...but the HPT was negative :-( We are going to test again on Saturday since it will be officially 2 weeks. If it's still negative...then try try again next month!

Isn't it Tuesday yet???

I seriously hate the 2week wait aka 2ww in the trying to conceive (ttc) world! technically, we could have possibly tested today but we are only 8 days past ovulation so our accuracy is only like 68%. Waiting until Tuesday gives us virtually 100% accurate HPT results. I have two finals on Tuesday and Joy has finals on Tuesday too so we decided to test Tuesday afternoon. Not sure if we will be more or less focused! But the extreme emotions associated with finding out, good or bad, could be bad for our test taking skills lol. I haven't been this excited for a date since the first date with Shorty :-) I am actually at the point of counting the hours now! lol realistically...we are just over 48 hours away from 1 of 2 things: another 2ww or the greatest joy and excitement Shorty and I have ever felt, hoping for the latter of course!

So if you read my wifes post you will know that she set me up pretty good. She says she likes to put me in uncomfortable situations because I don't embarrass easily. Well yesterday I did, it felt like I was cheating on my wife because as Kandi said either spouse wasn't there. But Joy and I joked our way through it and were really excited. Now the 2 week process begins. I am hopefull we will get a positive and then it will be 7 weeks until we can hear our baby and then all the other things leading up to meeting our little one in 9 months.I have included the Follicle picture and added some caption "This could be our baby. GO TONY find out in 2 weeks" Cher I hope you set your calender 2 weeks we find out lol. I am over the moon I can't believe in 2 weeks our lives could forever change and that excites me more than anything in the world. I can't wait to be a mom I just love kids and I can't wait to have one that both Kandi and I can mold into an amazing person. I know when it's right and if it's meant to be it will happen. I just can't believe it has been so hard for us because we both have so much love to give to a child. Like I said when it's time it will happen and I feel that things are happening now. So 2weeks from now you will be getting an update. Stay tuned everyone and thanks for following our blog.

My wife tried to knock up another woman today....

and I'm totally fine with it!!! hahahahha Today Shorty got to go to the insemination of our surrogate! Shorty had Joy and the nurse laughing hysterically, as usual. Shorty is mad at me, however, because I didn't tell her that Layla would be taking the kids to swimming while she and Joy went to the doctor to try to make a baby. So she called me after Tony was on board and in search of the almighty egg. She said, "I totally felt like I was cheating on you! Her wife had the kids at swimming, my wife was at work, and here we are together trying to make a baby!" lmao she is hilarious! Ok baby dust our way please!! Out of the 20-50 million sperm that are now swimming for survival...there has to be one, just one, that is attracted to that egg!!! Go boys go! Swim like you stole it!! haha And now...we wait. waa...waa...waa... The dreaded life in 2 week segments has officially begun but lets hope this is our only 2 week wait and our next wait is a 36 week wait!! :-)

Its here. ..

*singing* tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow, you're only a day away! That's right. .. tomorrow is IUI try #1! Fingers and toes crossed and baby dust our way please! !

Tony has been ordered

Today is an exciting day I just got off the phone with the sperm bank and I was told there was only 4 left of him ( I didn't like saying sperm I thought it was so informal so I named our donor Tony) So I ordered our vial of him and it is set to be delivered on the 5th of March so we could possibly inseminating on the 6th which means we are entering the two week zone anyone that is not familiar with the two week zone it goes as this you start your cycle two weeks you inseminate two weeks you test if you get a positive your done with two weeks but if you get a nasty negative you start all over. We have had our share of two weeks zones we are ready for the wonderful positive I know we will get one this time I can just feel it. No our kids name isn't going to be Tony if it is a boy his name is going to be Bennett Eric Ogden-Moles and if it's a girl Audrey Carolyn Ogden-Moles and we have back ups if we get twins of the same sex. I have been guarding myself from being overly excited but that just blew out the window something about ordering it and knowing when the ultrasound is gets you giddy like a school girl crushing on her all time crush. I am officially 200% excited and ready to get this baby growing

The bitch...

The bitch is what Layla and Joy call their periods. It is fun to say "the bitch has invaded" or "the bitch has arrived" hahaha. So...the bitch arrived yesterday! woohoo!!! Clomid then should start tomorrow and that means we really are 2 weeks away from our first IUI!!

Contracts

Ok, so the draft of the contract came on Friday. It is 20 pages long! There was a lot of stuff in there that didn't need to be in there, or needs to be changed. Changing attorneys sort of in the middle was a bit more of a pain than I expected. I went through and made notes about things to change then Joy called and we spent two hours going through it together making changes. It was rough. I am supposed to talk to the lawyer Thursday to go over what we want done and then she can hopefully have it back to us by early next week so we can get signatures and everything before IUI. Joy's appointment went well Monday. Everything is a go :-) Her Dr asked how many tries it took to get pregnant with her son and she said, ONE! with a huge grin. He said, don't expect to be so lucky this time :-( boo don't be such a downer! We are fully planning on getting pregnant the first time. It's cheaper, faster, and we will get a baby in 2013, it's perfect! As soon as we are all ok with contracts and they are signed, then it is on to IUI. I am planning on ordering "Tony" (oh btw that is what Shorty has coined our donor as!) early next week. That is a huge deal to get that ordered and shipped. I am potentially, hopefully, basically ordering our baby!! lol

Just an update

So we received the contracts from the lawyer and thank god that Kandi likes to read those kind of things and wants to know all the details because I would still be reading them and scratching my head wondering what the hell it all meant. I will tell you if you haven't seen a seragent contract it can be really scary. I am thankful we all had talked and agreeded on what the requirements would be before all of this because I would have freaked if we would have gotten contracts first. I mean money here and there for this and that I understand that people need to get paid for certain things but I started to freak out that we wouldn't be able to afford this and once again our dream of being a parent would be on hold again. but no we are still in agreeance  and we can have certain things removed from the contract. It is so crazy I am so ready to have that positive test and ready to start the count down until our first mothers day of 2 legged non fur kids and I try not to think that something is going to stop us from getting to the end with a baby I just want it now.
We got news today that all systems are go we are just waiting for the cycle to begin so it is getting closer to insemination day I walk around with a little ball knot in my stomach knowing the day keeps getting closer and closer but then it will be here done and then that little ball knot will be the size of a football for 10 days waiting to know if we are parents to be. Thank you to all of you who are following this blog and sharing our journey with us. I am already coming up with ideas for our pregnancy positive pictures.

moving forward

Ok, it is Thursday and tomorrow is our deadline from the lawyer to receive the draft of our surrogate contracts. This is a big deal!! I am so excited to get the formal contract and make things legally official! This is just crazy to me...on Monday Joy goes to her Dr's appt and will get her check-up and the final ok. She will also get her Rx for clomid and the trigger shot. Clomid starts on day 3 of her cycle which could begin as early as Tuesday or Wednesday! 2 weeks from IUI and 4 weeks from HPT (home pregnancy test for those that don't understand my acronyms lol) After all the discussion, the months of "negotiations" and talks with Joy and Layla about if this was the right thing to do...and the time is finally here. We are moving forward with surrogacy and our journey to make a baby. This journey has now been...maybe a year long...I can't quite remember because time seems to just fly by. Our journey is like so many others, and yet it is so unique to us at the same time. None of us know what is going to happen, how long this will take, or even how any of us will feel during and after the journey. All I know is that there is more love going into making this child than most children will experience in a lifetime. There are technically at least 5 people involved in making this baby. Shorty, me, Joy, Layla and our sperm donor. And if you want to count the attorney, the dr...it not only takes a village to raise a child, but in our case it takes a village just to make one. Fingers crossed for us, send us baby vibes over the next month, and keep us in your thoughts as this journey gets officially underway!

This and that

Ok I just want to tell Brianna Patlow your a jerk. I have been telling Kandi no shopping not until the we get a positive pregnancy test. Because with her looking leads to putiting things in carts which leads to buying which leads to more buying lol. Well yesterday Brianna says hey you need to look at this site they are having a killer sale. So I reluctantly went to the site she was right they were having a killer sale and I put $30.00 worth of stuff in my cart now I didn't buy because I was told if I buy she gets to. Now I want to shop Jerk (Brianna) lol.
Today I got the news that our paperwork was getting started. I can't believe we are one step closer to getting this journey underway. Part of me wants to jump out of my skin and scream with excitement but the other half knows the pain of being let down so I guess I am being reserved until we actually start. I have started looking at different things and wondering how I would handle them when asked by our child. I know that is so far down the road but I still think about it. I know Kandi is jumping and I don't want anyone to think that I am not equally as happy because I am I just waiting a bit. I can't believe that my amazing wife and I might have a family here in months. I can't believe that I will get to raise a child with this wonderful amazing women. I believe we will raise one hell of a kid with a great personality. I can't wait for us to be parents I really can't. I can't wait to hold our baby in my arms and no that no one can take him/her away from me that we are bonded for life. I can't wait to teach them the importance of family and how loved they are by us and that they can do anything they set their minds to. As much as I am going to enjoy seeing who they turn out to be I will cherish all the little moments along the way to them getting there.
I haven't said much to Joy straight on only through Kandi since they talk a lot more. But Joy I don't even know how to begin to tell you how much this means to me. Ever since I was a kid I wanted to me a mom. I dreamed about it talked with my sisters about it my friends and we even came up with the names we would name them. I had a really hard life with abuse and I always swore that when I had a child that child would never know one single ounce of the pain I felt and that their life would be showered with love, support, guidance, and whatever they needed at no time would they feel alone. When I discovered I was gay I didn't know if I would ever get the dream of mother hood since I knew it would be harder to achieve. I also thought that I would have to be married with a partner in order to even consider that option. After several failed relationships I decided to go it alone and tried to get pregnant both times ending in miscarriage. That is devastating and I didn't know how I would get through it but I did with time. My PTSD requires me to be on a ton of meds that I would have to come off of if I were to try to get pregnant again. Which we are both scared about. After the last miscarriage my cycle has been off they tell me that I can carry but I don't think I am even ovulating. Each time Kandi and  I tried or had to go to Medford to the DR our journey over would be full of excitement and talk of baby and our dreams and each time on our way back would be tears and sadness. I hated not being able to help or do something to make Kandi feel better. We started to think of life without a child and that is when we put out our last plea to help us and that is when you came along and made our lives turn upside down. It takes a special kind of person that is willing to give us a gift of life a gift without them would not be attainable a dream that would just be a dream. I have been let down and hurt so many times by people I tend to lose faith in humanity at times. but this, this not only restores my faith but it is going to allow me to realize my dream of being a mom. Now I know there are no guarantees but at least I once again have hope. I don't know how we can ever repay you for this but I want you to know that I love you with all my soul for going on this journey with us. You are special and all I can say is Thank you.

Lawyer...check!

So we had a little (teeny tiny) scare yesterday when the attorney's office called to say that the attorney I had been working with had been appointed to Judge since we last spoke. So I spoke to the new attorney today and she said we could find a new attorney or stick with the same firm just under a different name. Phew...I thought it was going to be something bigger and cause a headache! But no, it was just a conversation that needed to be had, not anything that needed to change. That means the contracts are underway!!! We should have the draft to us in a week, 2 at the most. After talking to the new attorney, and her saying yes we are still good to move forward and your timeline is fine...I was fighting back tears. This is very surreal for me right now. I know we have been here before....planning for a pregnancy etc. but this is somehow different. I think bc Joy (our surrogate in case I have just been caller her "the surrogate") has already produced 2 babies, we know she can do it and actually got pregnant easily with her first one. This is why it's different, this is why I am exploding inside right now. It is very conceivable (hahaha pun intended) that 7 weeks from now we will get a call that there is a + pregnancy test....I can't wait! I also know that it may take a few tries, been there before. But if I wasn't this excited about it...well that just wouldn't be right! lol I know that a lot of people say you should wait until you are out of the woods to tell people but even then it isn't for sure unfortunately. And, honestly, I just don't think there will be any containing Shorty and my excitement when we find out! We might...might be able to contain ourselves from blogging about it for a few weeks and just keep it to our family and friends...but probably not...and certainly not the 12 weeks!

Today was a good day...we picked our donor! We searched through many to get to the right one. We were able to narrow it down to 8 donors, then we looked deeper and found one of the donor's that we really thought sounded sweet and he had great characteristics. So..we were able to actually look at the baby pictures of two of them and decide from there. We picked one based on his profile, apparent personality, and it helps that he was a cute kid too! This was a different bank than we used before and it was kind of nice to be able to see a baby photo, that made the decision a lot easier. Our biggest fear in a donor...no chin. lol I know it sounds crazy but you know like beaker from the muppets had no chin? we worry about that! With the ability to see a baby picture we are assured that our donor has a chin and will hopefully pass that on to our child/children! lol

Donor Shopping

Yesterday I emailed all of the necessary information to the attorney and our surrogacy agreement should be under-way shortly! Our surro also opened up her bank account...this is getting very real! 8 weeks from now we will (hopefully) be finding out if we will be parents. That is the craziest thing to think about. Now for the donor: so the two donors we tried before are no longer available through the sperm bank we used. So...we had to go shopping! (I love shopping for anything lol) We switched banks and are now narrowing down. The things we want: intellectual, sporty, outgoing, diverse interests. Really not a lot! lol Oh and Blond hair/Blue eyes. nbd. Our sperm bank also has this nifty thing where you can submit an up close picture of the person that you want to match, and they will try to match your features to those of the donor. That would be kind of awesome. Somehow we, well I, decided that Shorty should be the one that we take the picture of and try to match. (She's so cute, I would love our baby to look like her) I think we have the donor narrowed down to at least 5...we have to decide quickly though. A couple of them have less than 12 vials available! I think every day we will look at the donors we have narrowed it down to and see if there is something new that stands out to us, good or bad, and either pass or fail them. If that doesn't work...Shorty says we will draw out of a hat! I love her

My oh My...

Wow, I last sat down to write in our blog 8 months ago. I wish I could say that all that time had been used brewing a bun in the oven, but no. So, here we are again blogging about a journey that seems to be taking forever. Since my body apparently does not want to carry a child, we are now taking a new route-a surrogate. We have an amazing surrogate that has agreed to help us. Right now, we are trying to get contracts with attorneys complete and dr's exams done etc so that we can begin Clomid with her February cycle (the end of Feb,so we do still have some time.) Shorty and I are feeling like this is the real deal. Our surro has had a child of her own so we know she can carry :-) Right now...these contract negotiations are crazy! first of all...the expense of having an attorney prepare the surrogacy contract is outrageous-$2000! Isn't there a basic form that all you have to do is go in and fill in the blanks? (I'm sure it isn't that easy but it should be lol) So, between work, school, and life, I will be attempting to revive our blog and keep posting about our experience leading up to being pregnant and of course when we are pregnant! Thanks in advance for your well wishes, prego thoughts, and prego pixie dust sent our way! xoxo Kandi